Well it has been a while since I last wrote. Forgive my inconsistency as I will try to do better. I left off with telling you how I felt about God until 2001; however since moving with my father and stepmother I never even thought of God that much. At this time my life was more stable with two parents who both worked. We lived a middle class life., My father would take us on vacations to DisneyWorld and he would also take me and my brother Kyle fishing. I got to see life in a different light. I had 2 parents who loved me unconditionally and I am forever grateful to God for those precious memories. By the time I was 21 I was working, had a car, and my own place. I was doing great and  it was at this time that I began to question my sexuality to the extent of going to the village to cruise gay boys. I went into this white gay bar called uncle charlies and was not turned on by any guy in there. I wanted to know where are all the black boys! Then all of a sudden this light skin guy walked in with a swag that had me wanting him bad. He looked at me and smiled and started walking my way. We immediately started talking and he asked me if I was new to the place. I told him I must stick out like a sore thumb. He said more like a child in a candy store. I asked him where are all the black boys, he said he would show me and we bagan to walk out the door. We proceeded down christopher st. and I was in awe of how cool everyone was with being gay. My eyes were open to a whole new world with all kinds of gays and lesbians. There were flamboyant, consevative, thug, preppy,butch,dyke..etc. All the colors of the rainbow I was proud to finally be home! We walked into 2 potato bar and all eyes were on me. At first it was real awkward like a sheep amongst wolves...here I am this young 21 y.o. virgin just coming out of the closet walking into this historic gay bar with men old enough to be my father. Yet they weren't looking at me in a fatherly way...lol Any way to make a long story short I met this sexy, cool, tall brother named Andre.His approach was so smooth as soon as I saw him checking me out from a corner he nodded for me to come over and I was on my way. As I walked up he shook my hand and said "hey, I'm Andre" I told him my name and he then said "you mad sexy, I want you" I couldn't help but to return the favor.."I want you too." (I wasn't that innocent..lol) I don't have to tell you how the night ended let's just say I lost my virginity that night..lol The next couple of weeks was a whirlwind of one night stands and wild living. After all I was a young man ready to sow my oats! ( and I had a lot to sow! lol) I was at this club called Paradise in Brooklyn off of Atlantic ave that catered to young black gay men..It was a reggae club and always packed on the weekend. It was my first time there and I had to fight the boys off me. It was so crowded and hot that I had to go outside for some air..It was then when this young phyne sexy brother approached me and looked me in the eye and said "damn you even phyner up close than far away." I said "thank you" He was telling me that one of his friends asked him to come over and introduce me to him however he wanted me for himself. I was so impressed by this teenager's confidence and blunt approach. I told him my name and he said his name is Aaron. It was love at first sight then we became lovers and we lived a very exciting and interesting life. I was 21 he was 17 but he was so mature for his age. He was in school and very serious about his education and goals in life. He ran track and is very gifted in so many areas. I learned more from him than he did from me. And I was the "older" one. Due to my infidelities I kept jeopardizing my true love for a mere romp in the sack. He continued to forgive until I pushed him away. I must say looking back in hindsight Aaron is the only Man that really loved me for me. Aaron if your reading this know that I mean what I said we will be reunited because your the one I choose to be with eternally. Well...I didn't expect to write that but I am just going with the flow...hope you enjoyed another chapter in my life and I look forward to hearing some feedback from you...comments,suggestions,critiques...love!